Diary of a Fat White Woman

Hi there. Yes I’m still alive. Been so busy with work and the magazine and family (mum has been in bed a week and half with major back problems and I’ve been at parents alot helping dad look after her)

Anyway, no letter yet from the obesity doctor. Anxiously waiting for it so I can contact my family doctor and get the ball rolling on the weight loss surgery.

Weight has remained steady and is at 435 lbs today. Knees are bad though and I’m really starting to feel the weight on me again. Even turning over in bed is a chore!

Oops sorry I haven’t posted for a week. Been busy with work.

Anyway, January 4th I went to see the obesity doctor and told him I had decided on the surgery. He was happy. He said it’s the only thing that will work for me. So he dictated a letter to my family doctor (not the referring doctor - whoohoo!) explaining how to fill out the OHIP pre approval application and the wording to use to ensure they know it’s urgent I get this surgery within the next six months. Unfortunately my doctor won’t get this letter for about 4 weeks!! I asked for a copy too so I’ll know what it says and approximately when my doctor will get it.

Then I go see my doctor (or at least her replacement) and discuss this and get the application filled out. Once I get approval my doctor then refers me to the clinic in the US and we’ll see what happens then. So really not much will happen in the next month.

I did gain a bit more and Monday the 8th I was 437. I’m pms’ing again though which is never good.

So I did get on the scales on Friday (Dec 29) and it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I was 434.5 so I gained 4.5 lbs over the holiday. Not bad. I can live with that.

But now it’s time to get back into things. I am really starting to feel this weight again. It’s getting hard to do things. My stomach feels so huge and in the way.

So trying with breakfast again. Had 1/2 glass juice, tuna sandwich and a non fat yogurt. Lunch I’ll have my cereal. See if this protein in the morning will give me a boost.

Thursday I go back to the obesity doctor at the hospital and tell him my decision to have the surgery. We’ll see where things go after that. He’s already told me that he doesn’t deal with surgery that it’s the referring doctor who should. This worries me because I’m pretty certain the referring doctor is fat phobic and doesn’t want to deal with me. When I went to see him in October he said I needed a colonoscopy to check for polyps or anything bad and told the nurse to set it up. She said I’d get the information in November for a January appointment. I never heard back from them. And my family doctor is on maternity leave. Now that I’ve made the decision I am anxious to have it done.

Anyway, I’ll keep you informed.

Happy New Year everyone!