Right after I wrote my last post, I called the doctors office. They had received the letter and my doctor had a cancellation that afternoon. So I went in at 1pm and spoke to my doctor. She was going to fill out the insurance application that evening and mail it next day. So it’s been 2 weeks today since it was mailed. Now I’m sitting daily and waiting to hear about it.
As for weight, I’m 438 so maintaining but it’s hard.
I jinxed myself last week I think. I got up this morning and I’m 442 lbs. I had a bad weekend. My period started 4 days early, very unusual for me. And I was cramping and miserable all weekend. And I ate. When I was out Saturday to get groceries I bought a bag of chocolate covered almonds. I ate all of them. And I bought a small delicio pizza and ate that. Didn’t have anything nutritious the entire weekend. I am trying to remain positive but it’s so hard.
I really want/need that surgery. Life is getting very difficult for me.
Nothing is really happening right now. Weight is still stable at 434 lbs.
Last Thursday was 4 weeks from my appointment with the obesity doctor. Still no letter. I called my doctor’s office today and explained to them and they said they hadn’t received a letter yet either. She is going to call the obesity doctor’s office and see if she can track it down. I told her that now I’ve made the decision I want it to happen soon and she said she doesn’t blame me. Hopefully I’ll hear from them in the next few days.
Otherwise nothing much is happening. Although sometimes when I eat something I think “will I miss this?” and usually the answer is “not really”.
Have been working hard on the magazine which brought out it’s first issue February 1 - www.ssbbw-magazine.com