Diary of a Fat White Woman

My body just does not want to go below 438. It’s driving me crazy. I have tried everything. I did the less than 1000 calories a day, I did the 2litres of water a day. I am usually staying around 1500 calories a day. According to websites at my weight I’d need 3200+ calories a day to maintain. So why aren’t I losing weight????

Right now I’m sitting at 443.5. I stayed the same all week.

Work has been stressful and have been working hard and had a few issues with a friend that upset me the past few weeks. Plus my period is 2 weeks late.

There are times I get on the scale and see that it hasn’t moved all week and I just feel like giving up. Oh and guess what, my approval for the surgery expires next week and I have to reapply to insurance for it. Is this ever gonna happen? Even though I am not gaining my body/stomach feels heavier and hanging lower and when I stand it pulls on the muscles and is painful. Mobility is getting worse.

What is wrong with me.