Diary of a Fat White Woman

Yea, my title says it all. So as my previous post said I was changing things around and trying something different. I started on January 1 at 453.5 lbs. January 4th I was down 3.5 to 450 and January 7 down another 1lb to 449. January 11 I was down another 1lb to 448 but gained it back over the weekend so was 449 on January 14th. I wasn’t too upset because my period started and I usually gain a bit right before it with bloating.

So my period is done and I should be back to normal. I stayed on track all week and did my weight exercises every evening for 10 minutes. I did nothing different from the week before and when I weighed myself today I had gained!!!! I am now 451 lbs. What the fuck?

It seems that every thing I try works the first week and then stops working and I gain it back. If I had the money I’d see a nutritionist but of course they are not covered by OHIP, which in my most humble opinion is fucking stupid. The government keeps complaining about the obesity in the country and WILL pay over $50,000 to cover my gastric bypass in another country (which should be a last ditch effort) but won’t pay for me to try other things first like seeing a nutritionist. Maybe I’ll write to the minister of health and complain.

Right now I’m just pissed and frustrated and watching my dreams of being thinner and actually having a life and getting out and doing things go right down the drain.

Well, as two people commented on my last post about not eating enough I’ve changed things around a bit. Starting Jan 1 these are my changes:

- weigh myself only twice a week (mondays and fridays)
- eat 2,000 calories a day
- do some weight exercises
- work on my procrastination issues

So, as of January 1 I weighed 453.5 lbs. Yea I gained a few over Christmas, of course. I then did the above mentioned items and weighed myself again on Friday and was down 3.5 lbs.

My boyfriend was over on the weekend and I found I wasn’t as regimented as during the work week (will have to work on that). However, when I weighed myself this morning I was down another 1 lb so now sitting at 449.

Continuing with things this week and see how things go.