Diary of a Fat White Woman

Not sure why but it’s been a very slow month in terms of weight loss. The last week my scales said I actually gained a few lbs. Not sure why. I get a bit depressed at times wondering where the 30lbs a month that I’ve heard so much about is. Only had one vomit session this month so that is good but had a few dumpings. I still need to learn to eat more slowly. The worst thing is the last week I have been losing my hair. I know I was told it was a possibility at about the 3 month mark but was hoping it wouldn’t happen to me. Apparently it’s your body’s response to the stress of the surgery and the so few calories you are taking in the first few months. I dread brushing my hair in the morning because there is so much in the brush when I’m done and on me. It’s only supposed to last a few months and there isn’t much I can do about it. The nurse said I won’t lose ALL of my hair and that it will grow back. Work has been very stressful so I am also wondering if that could be the cause of the very little weight loss.

At my follow up appointment last week I asked about getting into weight training because last time I was there they said only hand weights of 3-5 lbs. They said I can do whatever I want now but to listen to my body. So I met the trainer in the exercise room today and worked on the weight machines. It was fun!!! I hate cardio exercises and this was great. I am hoping to tone up things as much as possible to reduce sagging skin and such.

Eating wise this week has been ok but I really haven’t had much of an appetite except for yesterday. I was really stressed with work so maybe thats the reason but I just felt hungry all day. I haven’t really had hunger since the surgery so I’m gonna say it was more head hunger due to stress. I was flipping through take out menus and wanting so much to order piles of stuff. I didn’t because I knew it would be a waste of money as I can’t eat much and most take out stuff is too greasy for me now. But boy oh boy the stress was wanting me to pig out!!!

Ok so my stall finally ended and my weight loss was …

August 28 - 375 lbs

August 31 - 372.5 (-2.5)

Sept 4 - 370.5 (-2.0)

Sept 7 - 368.5 (-2.0)

I’m losing 4-5 lbs a week so I’m happy. And I’ve no more food upsets. Feeling good and starting to notice my body changing. According to my scales on Sept 7th I had lost 100 lbs since first seeing the surgeon in June 2008. WOW!!!!

I had a follow up today with the surgeon. My blood tests were perfect … calcium, sodium, b12, sugars, everything was normal except for my iron. Last time it was at 4 and this time at 14 so they want me to continue with the iron supplements. They were very happy with everything. They told me my bmi was 76 when I first came to them and today it is 60!!

I am really seeing this as the best decision I could have ever made.