Status Quo
Well sorry I haven’t written for a while but I’ve been super busy with work and lots of overtime. Today is Thanksgiving and I’ve taken the day off completely and done absolutely nothing (well maybe a teeny bit of housework).
Re weight loss - nothing has been happening. I am the same weight as I was on my last post September 26…. 367 lbs. I’ve been going up and down the same 3 lbs. I know it can happen and I read posts on obesityhelp.com with other people having the exact same problem but it is still quite discouraging.
I’ve not been paying much attention to what I”m eating lately. I just don’t seem to find anything that interests me. My taste buds have definitely changed since the surgery. Things that I used to really enjoy just don’t thrill the mouth anymore. And as I wrote that I had a thought — perhaps it was because before I was eating with my head. I’m not sure that makes sense and now I’ve put it in words it doesn’t quite sound like what my thought was. Oh well. Also because of me working so much I’ve not done my workouts with the trainer for weeks. I am going to try to this week. My sister and I have a new trainer for the weights and keeping the other for the pilates. I met the new trainer last week (her name is Jen) and watched her give my sister a workout and I’m scared LOL.
Hair is still falling out. It’s so very thin. Thinking that maybe I should get it cut but I’ve always had long hair and don’t like short hair. I’ll wait.
Went to a movie yesterday and had some popcorn. Unfortunately I have found out that I can munch down on popcorn with no problem. I can eat tons before I feel full. It was very yummy and so I bought a bag of smart food at the grocery store.
I am hoping this stall ends soon. Thanks for reading.
October 26th, 2009 at 1:54 pm
I hope you are doing great. I am more inspired now so I think I want to keep a journal. So I hope you don’t mind me saying all this to you. I feel the need to communicate in a very honest way to everyone right now. So I reread your post and have to say something that I hope might be helpful.
I just went to the surgeon today, probably won’t have surgery until January - IF I have it. Until then I am going to try to take some weight off on my own as I am still very afraid of surgery. I have been reading and talking to people who have had it and what you said in your post above reminds me of what my sister’s step-daughter told me. She said she went through a period of “mourning” after her surgery because she couldn’t even force herself to enjoy food like she used to. She tried to find something she could eat a lot of because she SO BADLY missed being able to eat A LOT. I don’t know what it does for people like us, but we need to stuff ourselves to feel comforted. She found that she could drink a lot all day long, and eat a lot if she ate very very slowly - all day long. So she did. Now she has gained back 50 of her 150 pounds lost. I am sorry that you found you can eat a lot of popcorn. Even if you eat Smart Pop, I hope you don’t, because it really sounds like you are trying to chase that old safe and comforting feeling of being able to eat with abandon. I am told you have to re-educate your brain to enjoy less and accept the fact that food will never be the center of your life again.
As far as the exercise goes, I don’t think I will ever be an exercise fanatic…ever. And exercise shouldn’t scare you! For myself I will approach it with moderation cause I know that exerices works on the muscle, not the skin. It can put your muscles in good tone, but it will never make your skin snap back into shape. Take it easy on yourself.
Hair loss. This really frightens me. But I hope you see it as an opportunity for a new style. Cutting your hair can be traumatic when you have had it long for long for a long time. My daughter cut her hair when she started loosing it and was sad for a while but now she loves it. Shorter layers give you body and make you look more youthful and dignified.
God bless and please don’t give up. I sure would like to know how you are doing.
January 31st, 2010 at 4:26 pm
Stillwondering what happened to you. Wish you would let us know